For two days straight I had been feeling as if I was dying, it was so bad, thinking of dying constantly, having a blur in my head and nothing making sense anymore, being consumed by a void, an awful feeling of drowning deeper and deeper.
Woke up the next day thinking I was better, but I wasn’t, the feeling was still there, pushing me down, eating me alive, tears everywhere, memories from the past, lots of them, and yet the feeling of death, I decided to express gratitude to feel better, and I did, after I understood that what was happening was that I was actually going through death, not in body, but the old me was dying and wanted me to be grateful for all things she have done, so she could leave in peace, knowing that I acknowledge everything she has done for me to get where we are right now.
And I felt her leaving, and I cried like a little baby being born in a new World, the song playing in the background was “ you were good to me”, which made me cry even more. Thank you old me, for bringing me here, for being so brave, for teaching so much of life, a part of you will always be here with me, we are the same soul, just different awareness right now, I am not used to let go, but I had to let you, so my highest self could take hold to lead us beyond.